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Kaden Barrenblade

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[ Sunday♥August13th♥2006
♥ 2:14AM
]
[ mood | weird ]

Yea I need to quit smoking pot so much. I love it tons. My life has been based on it since I was thirteen. I just don't wanna give it up completely. XD

Y do u hate me?

[ Wednesday♥July12th♥2006
♥ 1:46AM
]
[ mood | mellow ]

When all else fails..... wing it. I'll be the good lil stoner and ride it out

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[ Monday♥July10th♥2006
♥ 11:00PM
]
[ mood | distressed ]

Heh... Bleh. Eric is getting.... just a tad more serious than I intended it all to be. I don't want to hurt him, but if it keeps up... I'll have to. There were times when I didn't mind being heartless. Hell I loved it. It's just I can't exactly hurt the guy for just wanting to be loved. :( I feel like a bad person.... I know I'm gonna break it off with him in about a month. I should. :( :( :( I just don't want to hurt him! Summer brings on the smell of alcohol and smoke. When I go out I would like to feel free to do what I please. :( :( :( I am such a bad person.

Y do u hate me?

[ Wednesday♥July5th♥2006
♥ 10:16PM
]
[ mood | anxious ]

I've been reading a lot lately and the urge to write has been sitting on the tips of my fingers for a week now. All I want is more books.... my fave author has two new ones out and my jaw dropped as soon as I found out. I need them. I have all but a few of her books.

Eric is making himself into a slight burden. The words "I love you" were unwanted by him and I shrugged them off. I like him, but not enough to have the illusion of love. Love is something I don't want.... right now at least. I might allow him to stick in my life for a month more or so.

Eh my dad is nagging on me for being here.... Later.

Y do u hate me?

[ Friday♥June30th♥2006
♥ 1:34PM
]
[ mood | depressed ]

I donno when I'll be able to write in this thing.. I know no one reads it, but it gives me something to do..... somewhere to look when I need to get things out of my mind. My father doesn't want me using his computer anymore. So I can't visit my sites on a daily basis, but I'll try to do what I can. Myspace, vampire freaks, live journal..... and halls of illusions... I will miss. Hope I can get on here as much as I can. I don't wanna miss out on talk with all my friends. ~sighs~ this sucks.

Y do u hate me?

[ Thursday♥June29th♥2006
♥ 1:25PM
]
[ mood | bouncy ]

Cher rocks my socks! Such a goddess........

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[ Thursday♥June29th♥2006
♥ 11:29AM
]
[ mood | okay ]

Heh..... Eric said "I love you" to me before we got off the phone. I mean he has said it a few times before that, but I didn't know he was being serious. Err..... I said it back... I'm not sure if I do love him. I know I'm not in love with him. I'm fond of him, but love it a very...... BIG word.

Y do u hate me?

[ Wednesday♥June28th♥2006
♥ 3:53PM
]
[ mood | annoyed ]

My relationship just got a snag and I don't think he even knows it. Yesterday he told me that HE plans on getting me to quit. Talkin about how he will take cigs outta my pack so I'm not smoking so much till I have none. HA! Does this man really think I would allow him to stop me from doing what I want to do? Then he really found the wrong girl to date. Shit.... If I decide to quit then I will, but force makes me push back. If he tries to force me to quit... I'll probably end up smoking more. I'm odd like that. If someone pushes... I push back. I've always been like that. ~laughs~ He said I could smoke the green all I want, but he wants me to quit cigs! -_- Stupid men. Either I'll be happy with the way he is, train him, or get rid of him. No one tells me how to live my life.

Y do u hate me?

[ Monday♥June26th♥2006
♥ 10:55AM
]
[ mood | tired ]

Things happen that change your life completely. Either it makes you strong or it makes you weak, but that's your choice. I tried giving up on life once. Mentally.... many times. I still have yet to perish. This life I've been given is something special. All our lives are something special. Life is too short for bullshit. Not everyone sees that or even cares. I don't want to live mine like a fool.

Y do u hate me?

[ Sunday♥June25th♥2006
♥ 1:32PM
]
[ mood | amused ]

Eric's over here playing Grand Theft Auto:Liberty City Stories..... yea. ^_^ I went and foudn cheats for us. Tis a fun game. Errr.... Today the family is going out to my sisters for Haileys birthday party. Yay.........

Y do u hate me?

[ Friday♥June23rd♥2006
♥ 12:46PM
]
[ mood | moody ]

Yup I pick up that check today.... O_o Two fucking days. I'ma loser!


I didn't get to see Eric yesterday and I donno if I'm gonna see him today. :(


Errr I don't care how hot it is or gets I am wearing my fave pants with my ICP hoodie!


My hair needs to be fixed! I wanna be able to do something with it. I'm so close to ripping some of it out :P

Y do u hate me?

[ Wednesday♥June21st♥2006
♥ 11:34PM
]
[ mood | Shweed ]

I got to hang out with Lauren like I wanted, but when Tony called..... I wasn't making her life any better. He pisses me off. His bullshit..... it's not right.

Ha Ha Ha Ha.... Cara has some bitch Michelle harassing her and ummm -_- I want that bitches blood. She walked by and started shit with Cara and once I got a wiff of it I came running.... then screaming.... then threatening...... Oh my goodies it was a rush. I just wanted to pound her, but my dad came speeding down when he heard the yelling. :D The chick had to know I was serious. No one fucks with the "special" few friends I decide I must protect. I've got Caras back no matter what.... even if my body tells me that I can't >_< The rules are... when stoned..... body don't wanna fight.... unless it's a hyper high Yay! for hyper highs.


Children.... I think I want one.... not right now.... just want one someday. It's wierd.... I have an urge to get married and make a family X_x x_X!!!!! Maybe after I figure out what I'm doing with my life............ or........ an accident happens which wouldn't be fun. O_o Death to monkies!

Y do u hate me?

[ Wednesday♥June21st♥2006
♥ 11:49AM
]
[ mood | aggravated ]

WAAAHHH Lauren should be coming into Oswego today! Hoepfully she'll arrive before Amy comes home from work. All I wanna do is smoke a bowl with her <3 My bestest friend in the entire world! :( Only thing is I wanna chop her mans dick off cause he doesn't deserve it. He's treating her like shit. Expecting her to have most of the shit outta their appartment by the time he came home is bullshit. Isn't he the man? Is she not carrying his seed? BULL! He's not a fucking man.... not if he doesn't treat her like gold..... He's putting extra stress on Lauren and that's pissin me off. He has always put stress on her, but now it can do worse damage and and and and and ~takes a deep breath~ I'm gonna end up blowin up on him worse than before.... Heh....

Y do u hate me?

[ Wednesday♥June21st♥2006
♥ 9:57AM
]
[ mood | chipper ]

Eric forgot to give me his copy of his sister house key so he dropped it off this morning. Pfft... he's lucky I got my ass up at nine AM..... ^_^ Got some lovins so it was allllll worth it. I'm probably gonna take a book with me when I go wait for his niece. OH I found out how to spell her name -_- but forgot it. Errr that girl is a busy body... I hope I can keep up with all the activities she wants to do. Eight year olds have too much energy!....

Y do u hate me?

[ Monday♥June19th♥2006
♥ 6:57PM
]
[ mood | annoyed ]

Aha. O_o So I guess I killed my computer... As soon as I got it out of my room..... shit went flying. >_< Bad fucking day..... BAD FUCKIN DAY! I have music that sucks ..... I have no one to talk to.... I have no buds to smoke.... no cigs....... gAGIOHSghsjlhgSAGAsioghdfs Fuck me. ~bounces to a song she doesn't want on her MP3 player~ >_> >_< <_<

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